Don't want to hope anymore - Turn It Up Tuesday

My character, Charlie (short for Charlotte) is always hoping her father will step up and be the man she needs him to be. She only wants her hopes to come to fruition about him, and she can't stop hoping. But when he tells the ultimate lie, one that has the potential to yank all possible happiness from under her feet...
she's lost. Hope is lost, whether the lie is true or not, she is finished.

Sarah Jaffe's - Swelling portrays Charlie's mindset perfectly at this moment of enlightenment about her father.

All I wanna do now

Is lay down and die

If you're gonna do it

You'd better do it right

Or my heart won't stop swelling